Courage is resistance of fear, mastery of fear, not absence of fear.
Mark Twain
As a writer, I come across the need to master my courage every day. For me, writing is a challenge. A huge dare to see if I can extricate the ideas from my brain and deposit them onto the paper… or in most cases, the computer screen. I’m serious! The words flow so effortlessly in that gray matter occupying my head. The conflicts are spellbinding, the dialogue… sparkling and the description… a picture painted with vivid detail. But when I get down to transferring them all to written form…something gets lost in the translation.
Deep Groan.
Why does this happen to me? Never mind, I know why. If you’ve read my blogs, you’ve heard me mention the reason time and again. It’s simple, I live in… Ta Da… Writing Fear! As I write this blog, I find I continue to glance at the quote at the top of the page. Do you know what occurs to me? I haven’t mastered my fear yet. I’ve tried! I’ve written my fears down on paper and the solutions, and it’s helped. I’ve named my internal editor and on occasion, I yell for him to simmer down, and that’s helped. And I like to blog about my fears. Blogging helps me because I have to sit and think about the reasons for my fear. All of these kinds of activities have helped me write through my fear. But by no means have I overcome it. But I’m going to have to show fear who the real boss is in this relationship if I want to move forward, right?
So what do I do? Let’s take Twain’s quote and examine it…
“Courage is the resistance of fear…” Okay. Good. I can do that! There are plenty of things I resist simply because I’d rather do something else. Housework is a great example! I clean the kitchen, dust and vacuum, sure. But instead of getting it all finished first thing in the morning so I can write the rest of the day, I check my e-mails, read the news on the web and look over my writing from yesterday. Oh, I also text my sister. I have to see how she’s doing, right? Soon, its mid-to-late morning, I’ve procrastinated enough and there’s no reason for me to dawdle. Why can’t I put my doubts aside and worry about them later? If it works for cleaning the house, it will work for “writing fear” as well.
“…the mastery of fear…” Hmmm. I stared at those words for a long time before I came up with a solution for how to begin to master fear. I believe part of the answer lies in having the courage to put substandard words on paper and leaving them alone! I am a pro at sitting at the screen in a stupor as I stare at the words and wonder… “What am I really trying to say?” I swear, I work and re-work and re-work a scene until I can say. “I did it!”Enough already! Get the words on the paper and move on!!!
“… not absence of fear.” Perfect! I nailed that one!
Now I’m going to look at his quote one more time… “Courage is resistance of fear, mastery of fear, not absence of fear.” When you put his quote together, along with my answers you’ll find that it’s a r-e-a-l-l-y nice way to say… “Buttinchair hands on keyboards… Now!”
A funny coincidence happened this morning as this blog rolled around in my head. I turned to a page 63 of Meditations From The Road and found this quote…
“The unceasing practice of discipline leads to mastery”
M. Scott Peck, M.D. The Road Less Traveled
Guess I better get at it, huh? I left my hero in a small town… he’s about to get knocked off his high horse. I can’t wait to see what he’s going to do about it!
Until Next Week,
Blazen Mama